"If you want to die, you should come to me."
The "Flame of Heretics" Kept Burning by Benzo San'untei, Founder of Female Excretion Ichimonkai

"It started, of course, with my own fetish. I've always liked videos like peeping into toilets. But everyone with this fetish suffers the same pain. Falling into self-hatred, thinking, 'Why do I have such a disgusting fetish?' or 'I want to die,' yet still being irresistibly drawn to it. However, if you fulfill such desires in reality, you will be erased from society. That's why I jumped into a maker that handled such content."

"Yes. However, since it was a maker dealing with such underground things, there were naturally many people with strong quirks. It was what you'd call a completely 'black' (exploitative) company today. The word 'exploitation' fits perfectly. The company had money. I had youth and overflowing ideas. But they wouldn't let me use the money. So I couldn't give back to the maniacs.

Then, I thought I could be closer to the thirst of maniacs if I did it myself. I thought I could be the salvation for comrades who despair over their fetishes and think 'I want to die.' And at the same time, I wanted to show the world, 'There is a way to live like me!'"

"No, actually, I haven't been able to pack 100% of my ideals yet. My ultimate ideal is to 'build a public toilet studio taking up an entire floor.' I haven't reached that point yet. But thankfully, we have more funds than before, and we are now able to make works that are closer to our ideals."

"When I was approaching my 30s and working as a freelance director, there was a time when I was lost in how to live my life while getting caught up in some troubles. I was very cornered. Should I really stay in this industry? Just then, I received a message from a comrade who saw my work.

'Thank you for making such a work, I will treasure it for the rest of my life.'

The moment I saw those words, my resolve was solidified. Ah, I am being useful to someone. I finally braced myself to live my life being useful to someone on this path."

"'If you don't have money, come to me. I don't have any either, but don't worry.' ...Bold men of the past used to say things like that, and I want Ichimonkai to be exactly that kind of place. However, unlike people in the past, I won't say something irresponsible like, 'Things will work out eventually.' Things won't just work out eventually."

"Yes. That's why I stoke the fire here. I will keep it burning without letting it die. So, if you have time to say that life is hard or you want to die, you should come here and warm up. And I want to say, come help so that the flame never goes out. I hope Ichimonkai can be a warm place where everyone can find warmth."

"I want them to make this currently difficult world easier to live in, affirm themselves, and achieve 'self-realization.' And I want them to live so that their muddy yet powerful way of life becomes a 'role model' for someone else. This is a place where those who have fallen out of society can survive by joining forces. We will continue to prove that."